Saturday 1 October 2011

Dont move!

Talking about challenges that are thrown to you, the worst probably come wrapped in nostalgia. Such moments make you vulnerable, you defenses go weak, your strength dwindles and more often than not, you break down over things that might not ordinarily budge you. 
Understandably, that is the biggest challenge that I, not unlike most other people here, have been facing for the past 20 days (or so). Considering what this place puts you to, the sole motivation to persevere and progress lies with the eventual relaxation that one can achieve after all the hard work. In our case, after all the rigor of exams et al in September, all that our hearts were longing for was a break! A break from this hectic life we had been living, a break from the incessant roll of assignments/classes we had been drudging through, a break to sit back and observe the fine things of life! 
Ha.. only when you think that something SHOULD be done(atleast on humane grounds) is when IIM pulverizes your expectations. No matter how demanding the term had been, no matter how drained we were after the exams, the administration would not let us any break! They have their academic reasons, which are supposedly working to our benefit but I don't know whether they simply feign to fail to understand its psychological impact on students or they are actually that numb! A small break of even 2-3 days could have rejuvenated students, revived their energies for the upcoming term but who cares to consider that.
I might sound pretty irked by what has been done and I graciously admit that. Desperate is what I would call I was to go home.Shattered! So disheartening, such massive plundering of hopes and expectations! At such moments, nostalgia mounts. The helplessness makes you so vulnerable, so susceptible to emotional outbursts. It again becomes a challenge to handle yourself. Getting butchered by the administration might have become a habit by now, with their unfailingly unrealistic schedules and workload; but managing oneself on a new front is a new challenge every time. You need to unearth your potential towards handling it, employ it and deal with the situation. Not to mention probably is the fact that you need some support, some guidance to help you sail through such times. Once you find it, it's an asset else life appears to be a liability [:P]
I told you, challenges is what this place is all about; at least for those who decipher the scenes behind the mechanistic picture. And learning I am to deal with one by one as they are thrown to my face.

P.S. - Apologies if you find the asset-liability joke unwarranted and incongruous :)

~Ankita!

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